Fail. For now.
I couldn’t make myself call the counselor today. I thought about it and I truly wanted to, but I chickened out. Partially because I hate talking to strangers on the phone and partially because it is the necessary step I need to take before getting help, and that scares me shitless. I started getting really anxious about it and just shut down.
I promise myself that I will call tomorrow and set up an appointment.